Muscle cars drove a truck right through my heart.

There’s something about baby you and I…

This is absolute bullshit.

I can’t even sleep in my own home these days. Everytime I’m home I end up being awake for most of/if not all night. It’s not anyone’s fault and I there’s no reason for it but it’s so depressing laying here and not being able to sleep… :(

Desperatley needing change.

I’m trying so hard. Trying to be better, trying to get the rest of my fucking weight off, get a job (again… I know…), get my L’s so I can save for a car. I’m sick of living poor. I really am. I’m sick of people who I think are my friends, but reaaaaaalllyyyyyy aren’t. I want a fucking change. I want to be in control of my own fucking life again after falling down so many times in a row. I’m sick of fucking failing. I’ve never finished anything properly. Fucked up my high school education, fucked up my hair dressing course, fucked up school again, fucked up another job again (not my fault really though) can’t seem to keep friends for any longer than 6 years. I’m tired of wanting to beat the piss out of just about everyone I know. I’m sick of being held back and bring told how I need to fucking live my life. Because clearly, Everything I’ve been told to do, has been wrong. Everything I’ve been told works- doesn’t. I need to seriously catch a fucking break before I really lose it… Again…

I’m the only person who can do anything about any of this- I get that. And I’m doing it. I’m tired of not being happy with how I am. Wanna be back where I was…. Really wanna be back where I was. Life lessons don’t mean shit when you’ve forgotten who you are…

And I want you to know, ya far from the usual <3

asdfglahshammasshahahdhklppj /dies

I miss hairdressing :(

A lot. Thinking of having another go at it once I feel better :)

Being a decent person, but still not being able to catch a fucking break.

Haven’t been on in 2 days and lost a follower ahahahahahaha

Enjoying it up here though, good to sit around with everyone and have a yarn. Going back to Sydney tomorrow night, home sick but I don’t wanna leave, I feel so much better here.

Finally.

On the way to Cas. Still on the F3 and a long drive to go, feeling relaxed already - tunes, mates, food and chats. Needed this so bad !